Allyfeel

I was reading an article from an ex-editor that people are upset, negative, angry everywhere after the price hike. She was saying that instead of thinking on negative things, why not we focus our energy on something more positive. Watching a comedy and laugh it off is a good way to de-stress. Now, I wish I have time for watching my favourite TVB series.  

I was in a Kuan Yin temple recently paying respect to the Wealth God. The leader of the temple explained that Malayisian has been clouded by fears and uncertainty at the moment. A lot of projects, plans has been put on hold because of the price hike. People are worried sick and would do unexpected just to save pennies and resulted in unwanted conflicts. She was quoting car-pool friends got into disagreement, more money need to be spent for fixing car due to lack of driving at home.

She then asked us to pick a piece of money without looking. Gee, I picked a RM 1 and the number on the back of the money written 9644…., can’t remember the rest, it was worth abt 9.6 million according to the numbers. We were then asked to imagine the money is ours and the God of welath is more than happy to share his wealth with us except for people with no confidence. I go on look at a near by chandelier then keep my eyes shut ready for imagination. Haha..true enough I saw a figure of a man pouring loads of Gold around me forming a gold pool. THe feeling is so great I must say. My spirit was instantly lift and I feel so much better. Though I may not see the money in real life in a pool but I guess her intention is to make us feel better and when you are happier, things will come knocking on your doors. It’s quite logic, imagine a happy face sales person verses a sour face one. Which one would you prefer to buy the service or goods from?

Ivan last year’s birthday cake.

Let us all think of happy things more.

I am feeling a little depress today. There are so many frustrations we as a rakyat are facing and now come another big shock of petrol hike. And my usual fish ball noodle soup already increases its price from Rm3.50 last year to Rm5 now.  It’s a chain reaction, everything will follow suit. How can we cope with the uncertainty of our fade in Malaysia? How is our offspring gonna survive in years to come if this problem is not fix and look into seriously? I wanted to get a new car but no, not now. I remembered being able to own a brand new Hyundai at Aus7-8K back then in Australia. Here in Malaysia, one has to go on loan from 3-9 years to pay off their car loan if no substantial amount of deposit is placed in the first place.

Our shoulder is getting heavier by the day. I can’t see where we are heading, dark clouds is fogging our head due to inefficient management and corruption. We are the one that suffer ultimately, not them. I am seeing a vague image of myself struggling on the surface of deep water, paddling hard to stay afloat and avoiding blood suckers and man-eaters. When is this going to stop? Where are we heading? When can we see lights in the tunnel?  

Time flies, Adel is 10 months old now. It’s a bundle of joy to see her happy face and genuine sweet smile everyday. She is a great eater too, never picky about food; whatever Sri serve, she would happily gobble down her throat.  She has two pearly white at the bottom of her gum, constantly looking for things to bite in order to soothes her itch gum. I could feel her teeth while breast-feeding her. She used to bite me, ouch, but after a few times of “NO”, she learnt. She could pull herself up since 9 months and could crawl super fast now.

There’s two more months to go before I decided to stop breast-feeding her. If I could I would not stop, I think I am gonna miss feeding her so much. I really want to breast-feed her as long as I could. However, I can’t, simply I don’t feel eager enough to share my breast between my daughter and my husband. Sounds funny eh? I wonder does breast-feeding mothers out there facing such dilemma?Therefore, I need to put a stop to it and takes care of my hubby’s need too. I hope I have done enough for Adel. 

Adel very busybody,  disturbing her brother doing homework.

As for Ivan, he is growing fast and demanding as well. He is better at handling homework and Mandarin. While watching “Wah Lai Toi” with me, he could point out words like “牛肉,妈妈,头” at the subtitle on the screen and words at Chinese restaurant’s wall. He is crazy about Ben 10 toys, watch and games at the moment, every now and then, he wants toy. Boy, do you know that mom and dad’s wallets are very windy and have very big hole edi?

Ivan performing in school sports day.

Ben 10 toys. 

 Ivan gave me this. Sweet! 

Well, hope all mother’s are happy in this Mother’s day. Happy mother’s day to all dedicated mothers.   

Whatever I am doing now is not all that easy as I have to constainly suck up to people. Well, to be honest it comes with perks like really nice and expensive paid for meals but after a while, I kind of get immune to it and started to think otherwise. There are lots of work to complete daily, sometimes I hardly even have time to read the news. My one-leg-kick job is getting a little on my nerve. I so wanted a break. So fast eh? I underestimate my threshold…

The other day when I was coaching Ivan with his home work, (They are tons of them, sometimes we finished hw at 11pm, CARZY!) he got frustrated with me correcting his mistake in Chinese Characters, he threw his pencil, and said,

“You just throw me to the rubbish la.”

“Huh?” I got so stunned, gosh!!! (He must have picked up what I said about throwing him to the smelly rubbish dump if he is naughty.)

This is not the first one, there are more…in the car, while talking, he got upset with me and bla out something like this,

“You just throw me outside la and the cars will langgar me.” -”bite fingers.“

“I hope you are joking, I care for you that’s why I tell you all this. If you are not my son, I don’t think I will care. Like those dogs outside, nobody care for them, no food, no milk, no home, no toys, no mummies, do you want that to happen to you?”

““No”, he replied.

 ”You are joking right?” I asked him again.

“Yes, I am joking”, with a frown.

Merry Xmas everyone. Wishing you and family a New Year blossoms with joy, health, wealth and filial children.

Hello! Miss me or not? I really miss all of you bloggers. I have been real busy lately, time really flies and there are so many occurrences. We attended Ivan’s school concert, it was awesome. He surprised us by his very charming performances. I am glad that he has shown lots of improvement in school. My poor boy is recovering from chicken pox now. Aiya…the maid la, past chicken pox to my boy. Luckily it was just a very minor one. The fellow is now playing games beside me. He is very super “geng” and “savy” with his games. I do limit his time of play though, he now gets to play only after dinner.

As for Adel, she is growing up fast and well(6.2kg now).  Drinks quite a fair bit, has a better pattern of drinking and sleeping. It’s easier to handle her now. During day time, we send her to the nanny. Yup, I started working again on Monday. Initially I wanted to start work after Dec but when an opportunity arises, I just grab it, can’t afford to loose it. My mom-in-law is in Australia now looking after my sil whom just gave birth as well. Back to my work again, it’s a totally new area I am venturing into. There are a lot to pick up at work. I was not brief by my predecessor so I kind of have to pick up piece and pieces she left in the office.

Oh Yea, I am still breastfeeding Adel like normal except I express it in the office. It is fortunate that the environment is very friendly. It has a room with toilet attached that I could use to express milk. At home I still feed her direct. I find it so convenient feeding her direct especially at night. No hassle, easy-peasy, just lift up the shirt and feed. Haha! I really hope I could keep feeding her as long as possible. I am a little stress out today, having shoulder ache and I need a lot of sleep. I am gonna get some sleep now. I love to hang out with u bloggers again. Please do keep me in the loop if there is any meet up in the future. I am like so outdated. ZZzzzz…