Allyfeel

This post is inspired by Zara’s strength. A few months back, we brought bb to Jusco for some shopping; he saw a box pop ’n build blocks from fisher Price that his daddy bought him earlier.

Not sure why he was so attracted to it when he already had one at home which he hardly play. Puzzled! I told him “bb, you’ve got one home already, leave it”. Obviously he didn’t listen to me, I left him alone to see what he did. He lifted up the entire box which was almost his height then. He brought it to the cashier for his daddy to pay.

Me and my maid was giggling non stop over his action.

I have been busy at home taking care of the little monkey. He has been very active lately. He used to go to bed around 9:30pm but not anymore. He would jump high and low, one moment throwing his doggie underneath our bed, other times digging the parquet flooring for the broken pieces. Jumping on our bed is another joyous moment.

Once, he took one of my lipstick and there he put on some color to his own lips, I stopped him on time but a little too late to save my earth tone lipstick as he has broken them into two. He also dipped my eye-brow brush in the broken lipstick. *Shake Head*

I must be extra careful; he stuffed his mouth a pack of silicon gel from a drawing kit last night. There I was reluctantly cleaning up ruins left by the restless little one. I am dog-tired! But again energized after a good night sleep and waking up to a little charming angel. Ar…..Life!

bb went under the bed to recover his doggie and refuse to come out.

I was tagged by Zara’s Mama and Mom2Ashley…

The Rules: Remove the blog in the top spot from the following list and bump everyone up one place. Then add your blog to the bottom spot.

1. Between Lambs & Mutton
2. The Life of An Independent Babe
3. My All
4. All About Zara/ Mom2ashley
5. Allyfeel

Then you select five people to pass the love on to. Here’s my selection:
1. Krazieangel
2. Metria
3. Mumsgather
4. Essence of Love
5. Who is baby

Here you go, you might get to know more about me…:)

1. What were you doing ten years ago?
1995… It was my first job in a college. After graduating in the college, my dean of studies took me in as an art lecturer in charging of some subjects. I stayed for the entire year working real hard and saving real hard before further my studies in Melbourne.

2. What were you doing 1 year ago?
I was recuperating from my tiring sleepless night taking care of bb. Enrolled myself to a yoga and bead classes to gain new skills and enjoyed a stress free life.

3. Five super fatty and high cholesterol snacks you enjoy:
1. Dahfa Fish Stripe snack
2. Dry sotong
3. Twisties
4. Any type of chocolates
5. Kelantan fish crackers

4. Five songs to which you know all the lyrics off your head right now:
1. Rock a bye Baby
2. Incy wincy spider
3. Head and shoulder, knees and toes
4. 月亮代表我的心(Theresa Teng)
5. Right here waiting (Richard Marx)

5. Five things you would do if you were a millionaire (a millionaire doesn’t mean having only 1 mil..but millions…)
1. Buy paintings from famous artist and keep as an investment
2. Do some charity works with 10% of what I have, doesn’t matter any charity like giving some to relatives and friends.
3. Take the other half to set up my own business
4. Buy lots of pretty cloths, handbags, shoes and furniture
5. Travel around the world

6. Five bad habits:
1. Mood swing
2. Day Dreaming
3. Nag my hubby sometimes
4. Tend to slouch when tired
5. Very Messy

7. Five things you like doing:
1. Sleeping
2. Blogging
3. Looking pretty
4. Chatting with friends
5. Eating good food

8.Five things you would never wear, buy, or get new again:
1. Tight pants, it’s so uncomfortable only men love them. I am struggling for oxygen.
2. Mascara, even a water prove one make me look like I got wallop by somebody
3. I would never wear a skimpy bikini
4. I would never buy whole loaf of bread because nobody will eat them at home, it will go to waste in the bin.
5. I will never buy a new phone again unless somebody give it to me.

9. Five favorite toys:
1. Teddy Bear (the type that has very messy hair)
2. My Blog
3. Photoshop
4. Yoga matte
5. My lovely son, I have fallen in love again

Not sure why nowadays I always go into dreaming or off mode when I drive. It’s scary I know but I went thinking about things and words just appear in my head. It’s like having a conversation with myself. Sometimes I even think of angry words to say to a person I don’t like. But those words were rehearsed in my mind, never been released a word out of my mouth. At times it seems very noisy in my head; therefore I need to tell it to somebody. I have started putting things that I can’t tell you in my new diary. That way, when I am stress I will feel better, it’s like having a conversation with GOD. Very serene!

I am not feeling very good today. Just want to put off those noises.

Well this is a different incident altogether, just to divert my attention from those unhappy thoughts. Let’s talk about what happened to me on the 31st of Dec, 2005. I drove hubby’s car out to grab some “tau fu fa” after lunch then I went on to a nearby neighborhood to rent a TVB series as there’s a long holiday and I needed to kill time.

When I arrived, there were many cars, I spotted a car park and remembered looking at the back earlier to make sure there wasn’t any car before I reversed. As I put on the reverse gear and pressed the accelerator, “PANG”, I heard a loud bang, I have hit a car. “Fuck, what a day to end the year with”, I mumbled. Luckily bb wasn’t with me. So I parked my car to the side and went down to inspect it. To my surprise, it seemed like the car was fine, no sign of damage. Shock, I went over to the BMW’s owner, yes I hit a BMW, asked him “How is your car?” he replied,”It seems ok to me”. So I apologized to him and off I go, trembled a little while counting my lucky stars. Phew!!!

I have not had any accident since I’ve got a license. Again back then, I just hit the front light of a friend’s car. Nothing very serious happened till that day. My car’s scratches and small dent was caused by my husband and other jerks that had itchy hands. So I am a pretty good driver I would say. I think I was very blessed on that day, thank God!

Just to capture some development of bb.

Lately, bb has developed a habit to poo at night before he sleeps. When he wants to poo he will shy away from all of us. He will go to a corner and suddenly we won’t hear a thing from him, silence.

“Where is bb?” I will tease him. Usually he will gesture us to go away and refuse to leave his corner or cave until his business is done.

Me: “Yee….smelly bb, come mommy wash wash”
Bb: “No…” gesture me to go away
Me: “Why? It’s so smelly, come go to the toilet, mommy wash”
Bb: “Not yet…” shake his head hard.
Me: “ok, ok, when u r done, tell mommy okay?”
Bb: “okay”

I continue closing my eyes resting on bed while bb roaming around that small corner in our bedroom quietly.

Last night, after washing, cleaning and changing, it’s time to sleep. Bb came very close to me, very caringly put her sweet mouth on my nose and kissed gently. He repeated it two times and smiled before going back to sleep beside me. So sweet, my heart melt, I sang to him and watched him sleep.

This morning, while I was still sleeping, bb woke me up. “Mommy, baju wet wet”, exact words from bb. His diaper is too full; it wet his top and pants a little. I changed him and kissed him good morning, he replied “morning mommy”.

Mil has bought bb a box of junior color pencil. These are his creation.

This is Mr. Ally’s depiction of me in yoga action.

2005 was a very different year for me in terms of my career. Well, perhaps career is not the word, just a job now. A job from 9am to 5pm, no over time, pay reasonably. The best thing is there wasn’t any pressure or thought of work after work or weekend.

Therefore, I could spend more time with bb and family. Even though it was a very easy and steady year but I am still not very satisfied with it.

Lately I have started to think again and ask myself, “What would you want to be?”

There is an answer deep down inside trying to reach out to me. I think I am listening, listening to it very carefully. I hope it could be materialize in 2006.

Bb has been cheekier than ever but he is easier to handle than before. I am feeling more relax now than before. Used to fear having another baby but may be this is a good year to conceive. Just received a piece of good news from Hazel, she is pregnant with the second one. Congratulations Hazel! Hmm…now I have the itch in me to have the second one but it depends on Mr. Ally.

On friendship, thank you to my group of kindergarten and primary school friends, guys I cherished all your company. Also a group of new found blog friends, thanks for sharing your life and also be part of my life. Thank you! A very Happy New Year guys, hope all have a magic wand in your hand to make every dream come true.

Ciao 2005 and Hello 2006.