I was in a Kuan Yin temple recently paying respect to the Wealth God. The leader of the temple explained that Malayisian has been clouded by fears and uncertainty at the moment. A lot of projects, plans has been put on hold because of the price hike. People are worried sick and would do unexpected just to save pennies and resulted in unwanted conflicts. She was quoting car-pool friends got into disagreement, more money need to be spent for fixing car due to lack of driving at home.

She then asked us to pick a piece of money without looking. Gee, I picked a RM 1 and the number on the back of the money written 9644…., can’t remember the rest, it was worth abt 9.6 million according to the numbers. We were then asked to imagine the money is ours and the God of welath is more than happy to share his wealth with us except for people with no confidence. I go on look at a near by chandelier then keep my eyes shut ready for imagination. Haha..true enough I saw a figure of a man pouring loads of Gold around me forming a gold pool. THe feeling is so great I must say. My spirit was instantly lift and I feel so much better. Though I may not see the money in real life in a pool but I guess her intention is to make us feel better and when you are happier, things will come knocking on your doors. It’s quite logic, imagine a happy face sales person verses a sour face one. Which one would you prefer to buy the service or goods from?

Ivan last year’s birthday cake.

Let us all think of happy things more.

Our shoulder is getting heavier by the day. I can’t see where we are heading, dark clouds is fogging our head due to inefficient management and corruption. We are the one that suffer ultimately, not them. I am seeing a vague image of myself struggling on the surface of deep water, paddling hard to stay afloat and avoiding blood suckers and man-eaters. When is this going to stop? Where are we heading? When can we see lights in the tunnel?  

Time flies, Adel is 10 months old now. It’s a bundle of joy to see her happy face and genuine sweet smile everyday. She is a great eater too, never picky about food; whatever Sri serve, she would happily gobble down her throat.  She has two pearly white at the bottom of her gum, constantly looking for things to bite in order to soothes her itch gum. I could feel her teeth while breast-feeding her. She used to bite me, ouch, but after a few times of “NO”, she learnt. She could pull herself up since 9 months and could crawl super fast now.

There’s two more months to go before I decided to stop breast-feeding her. If I could I would not stop, I think I am gonna miss feeding her so much. I really want to breast-feed her as long as I could. However, I can’t, simply I don’t feel eager enough to share my breast between my daughter and my husband. Sounds funny eh? I wonder does breast-feeding mothers out there facing such dilemma?Therefore, I need to put a stop to it and takes care of my hubby’s need too. I hope I have done enough for Adel. 

Adel very busybody,  disturbing her brother doing homework.

As for Ivan, he is growing fast and demanding as well. He is better at handling homework and Mandarin. While watching “Wah Lai Toi” with me, he could point out words like “牛肉,妈妈,头” at the subtitle on the screen and words at Chinese restaurant’s wall. He is crazy about Ben 10 toys, watch and games at the moment, every now and then, he wants toy. Boy, do you know that mom and dad’s wallets are very windy and have very big hole edi?

Ivan performing in school sports day.

Ben 10 toys. 

 Ivan gave me this. Sweet! 

Well, hope all mother’s are happy in this Mother’s day. Happy mother’s day to all dedicated mothers.   

“You just throw me to the rubbish la.”

“Huh?” I got so stunned, gosh!!! (He must have picked up what I said about throwing him to the smelly rubbish dump if he is naughty.)

This is not the first one, there are more…in the car, while talking, he got upset with me and bla out something like this,

“You just throw me outside la and the cars will langgar me.” -”bite fingers.“

“I hope you are joking, I care for you that’s why I tell you all this. If you are not my son, I don’t think I will care. Like those dogs outside, nobody care for them, no food, no milk, no home, no toys, no mummies, do you want that to happen to you?”

““No”, he replied.

 ”You are joking right?” I asked him again.

“Yes, I am joking”, with a frown.

Merry Xmas everyone. Wishing you and family a New Year blossoms with joy, health, wealth and filial children.